How to become Immortal

I am so sorry
I can’t move over the mountain
Standing stones
Just being in the way
Of everything
There are seasons
Where war and revolutions
Constitutions, hopes and anticipations
Immaculate considerations
Of the beautiful
And all the other I O Ns
Where we wish to begin
With the ends

I am sorry I have
Lost sight of sanity
They seem to haunt me
Like all perfect ghosts
In the reflections
Of my failures and my intentions
You’ll see
I cannot come to ague with you all
I have no war to fight
I have no peace to win
I have gone too far form here
And I cannot steer away from the hole
Of my emptiness

No one told me
That people die because they love.
How their words are with me
But I cannot live to understand
These bright days
And how they slip away
Without me
I stand still from far away
I can only reach the world from a distance
From a stance on the horizon

No one told me
That life cheaper during the day
Why did I go away to feel at night
And why did I lay me down among withering leaves
To try and remember the life in them.

I’ll quit my words
I’ll leave once again
I’ll forget all of you
I’ll see new things
And leave the past to die
I’ll know nothing
And never try to
I’ll kiss no one
I’ll kill everything
Just to win me back
I won’t be sad
I’ll let me grow
Into shadows and lights
I’ll reflect
Everything I see.
I’ll murder god
I’ll save judas
I’ll burn by my
Station wagon fuel
It was all of you who made
So all of you must hate me
And light the match
And light the match
And light the match
I should have known.

As the car drives by four in the morning,
A distant smoke rises in the first sun chatters
The roadside shows a charcoaled skeleton
Some car gone wrong
And the ambulance flashing silently in prayer
Over the man screaming bloody murder
Curdling and nursing his roasted skin,
His eyes shake a breath of anticipation
Mumbles the presence of an unseen man
With fingers made of stars
And hair made of sun
The day has risen in front of him
As he leaves here when the night dies.