It’s the thing I am most afraid of
Beinghuman
Being alive.
Why do they say I can’t run away
Why can’t I take a pillow case
And suffocate
Why can’t I bleed and
Die
Why is it human to struggle
A conflict
Why do we have to strive through?
These Troubles coming like torpedos
We have to dodge
And when hit
Just call a medic
And cry on his shoulder
“I am going die, Oh my God
I am going to die!”
And you will be alright
Why not cry
“I am going to die, thank my God,
I am going to die”
And whimper a last breath
With a smile on your face
Then angels might sing
Hallelujah
You found no reason to live
Because why would God love to see me
Being purposeless?
Why should I be a bulletless gun?
Why should I scrounge the creek side
For slick rocks
When I’ve got no sling
To kill my own goliath
Let his club swing
At bees like me
I can sting
And I can die.
Hallelujah
The angels will sing
That forgiveness is giving up.
Worries will make you sick
Worries are the devil
Hallelujah
They will sing
They be shining lights
As you faint
because blood pours from your wrists.